I have lately and often wondered when particular things happen in my life...is it really the Lord's doing or a stemming from a choice that I have made utterly blind on my own.
A while back we were within an hour of signing the paperwork for our new acreage and farmhouse. We had become so attached...we had dreamed of what we would make it into...how our kids would grow up...what we would start on first...until it was picked up from underneath us within an hour from signing. We were crushed...we were confused...we were lost...now what? We had feverently prayed that the Lord would reveal His will and if it was not in our best interest to invest in this place, that He would make it impossible for us to have it. Well He did. So, with the confusion and hurt that I've been battling with losing this place, it was a drenching for my soul to hear this in the sermon the other day...
"The little girl was only weeks old when she contracted an eye disease. Her parents took her to a physician, and in the process of treatment the doctor accidentally prescribed the wrong medication. As a result, the girl became permanently blind. And yet, in spite of her blindness, she composed more than 8,000 hymns during her lifetime. ...Toward the end of Fanny Crosby's life a friend asked her, 'Do you ever feel any betterness toward the doctor?' She replied, 'No, you see, it may have been a mistake on the doctor's part, but not on God's part'. ...This is God, who is in perfect control of ALL things in heaven and on earth.
When she was only 8 years old, Fanny wrote these words...
Oh what a happy soul I am,
Although I cannot see;
I am resolved that in this world
Contented I will be.
How many blessings I enjoy,
That other people don't;
To weep and sigh because I'm blind,
I cannot, and I won't.
Thank you, Fanny for your greatest display of love, faithfulness and an unforgettable joy that has been radiated from your being.